Wearing My Mood: Grey
Photos: This Brit
Opening the curtains this morning, I was greeted again by the drizzle and grey skies of England. The traditional English weather, truly living up to its name. If I can’t beat it, then why not join it? So I dressed in shades of grey, and my mood? Well that’s pretty grey too, I’ve been feeling pretty unmotivated and somewhat insular, sort of like I’m inside a bubble that I just can’t seem to pop. I can see everyone on the outside of the bubble, but I’m not quite there, I’m removed from it all.
I suppose that may be why my blog has somewhat been abandoned. If I’m not inspired I find it very difficult to write about things that matter to me. This blog is a place where I want to be honest about how I feel and what I’m up to, being in this bubble feels like it would be a lie to talk about what I was up to as it had no connection to me.
It is important to take time for yourself, to reflect on yourself and give yourself some head space. Time to reconnect with your emotions. So that’s exactly what I’m going to do, in between assignments and revision. With friends, family, coursework, exam prep and post uni prep all hitting you at once at this time in the semester, it can be difficult to have a healthy balance and find time for yourself too. But careful planning has done me the world of good! It stops me from worrying about everything and clears the haze of stress I usually live in, at least slightly. (When you’re a stress-head like me, getting rid of stress completely is almost impossible!)
I always try and turn negative situations into positive ones when I’m reflecting on them, pulling out the important things that I learnt from those experiences really helps me do this. One of the most important things for me is closure and leaving negativity in the past, not letting it hold me back or cloud my future. When I’m hiding in my little bubble, I may not like it, it can feel very lonely, but when it finally pops and I come up for air, I really appreciate everything around me so much more. It motivates and inspires me in ways I couldn’t even imagine when I’m in that place. In a strange way, it makes me appreciate my bubble as well, it makes me think of it almost like a safe place, just for me.
I’d love to know what you do to feel safe when pressure gets a bit overwhelming? Especially at this time of year!